m at werk now, having me lunch at me desk..wit dearie's mp3(which he so kindly loaned me) playing..at the moment trick daddy's - Sugar..

i love my work. seriously.

but, lets not talk abt that.

rite nw i wana talk abt dreams..rêves...not the ones dat u have in yr slp...

dream
n.
1. A series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep.
2. A daydream; a reverie.
3. A state of abstraction; a trance.
4. A wild fancy or hope.
5. A condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration: a dream of owning their own business.
6. One that is exceptionally gratifying, excellent, or beautiful: Our new car runs like a dream.


i realized then...while i watched my dearie played soccer on dat sunday..it was a perfect day, it was neither hot nor raining..as the sun sets..it was a beautiful evening. dat my dear was in his element. revelling in it n enjoying himself. he nv looked happier..doing wat he loves n wat he does best.

suddenly i felt so proud n a weird kinda feelign came over me...n i suddenly remembered wat his mum told me once," u noe mimi, he was actually supposed to play for (cant remeber the exact team here) gombak team, but his granma din allow him..he was a very good player. a captain in his sec school team"

a dream unfulfilled.


an aspiration gone unchased for. yet....


then i find myself exactly in the same situation...i ask myself , wat happened to my dreams of being a dancer?


what are my dreams niwae? do i have it in the first place??


do i noe wat i wan in life??




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all of a sudden, i felt very sad.